So like. 08-06-2015, 05:48 AM
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Yesterday was my 22nd birthday(the 5th), and outside my family, only one person told me happy birthday.
No gifts, basically a dinner that I ended up feeling guilty about anyways cos it was more than I thought it would be, and my grandfather seemed upset that it was that much.
It basically opened up my eyes on how much I don't really have friends beyond my one friend, and that I'm really not worth spending anything on. Mind you, they have money for it, just my grandmother makes $2000+ a month, on top of his almost as much per month.
I'm not ungrateful for the dinner, it meant a lot cos tbh I was expecting like how my 21st was, where I basically sat at home at just googled shit.
It's just, I don't really feel like people think I'm worth very much anymore. Nobody beyond people who've never met me in person even talk to me, save the one friend who hasn't talked to me in a year anyways, so idk why I had any hope that I'd get something.
But it was sort of a stupid wish to have a birthday that goes well and I actually feel wanted, yanno?
No gifts, basically a dinner that I ended up feeling guilty about anyways cos it was more than I thought it would be, and my grandfather seemed upset that it was that much.
It basically opened up my eyes on how much I don't really have friends beyond my one friend, and that I'm really not worth spending anything on. Mind you, they have money for it, just my grandmother makes $2000+ a month, on top of his almost as much per month.
I'm not ungrateful for the dinner, it meant a lot cos tbh I was expecting like how my 21st was, where I basically sat at home at just googled shit.
It's just, I don't really feel like people think I'm worth very much anymore. Nobody beyond people who've never met me in person even talk to me, save the one friend who hasn't talked to me in a year anyways, so idk why I had any hope that I'd get something.
But it was sort of a stupid wish to have a birthday that goes well and I actually feel wanted, yanno?
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