[lux]

@lux: it's not something I can track, that's the problem. It happens irregularly and at random intervals. Started as a phase in my teens, now it's fully developed into very little control over my emotional behaviors.

I see. I've talked to someone who's medicated and diagnosed with a personality disorder. And I can kind of relate to him. The stupidest thing can trigger an episode in me. But I have a fear of doctors so I guess I'll never know.