[mothered]

but my anxiety says they will find out some way. Cant argue with anxiety.
I'm scared and lost

Based on this, It appears to me that you're not ready to perform the art of human manipulation.

This Is just the beginning and If you're feeling this sort of discomfort and loss of direction during It's early stages, you will definitely not be prepared for things to follow. Build your confidence by doing quite a few practice runs with no legit Intention (phone calls, emails, chat and so forth), thereby formulating your mental skill set, awareness and know-how for when the time comes to perform the real deal.