[Cyan]

Have you ever felt so down that you wanted to shoot yourself mutliple times and than set yourself on fire afterwards? Well I feel that way everyday. I seriously come on the internet just to get away from all this bullshit in my life where others try and play the game im living the game. everyday I wake up sad that I didn't die in my sleep. I sit in my room everyday after school and only go out to play basketball in my backyard so no one talks to me, and I also go out for family dinner. I hate everything and everyone in my life. I just wish it was my time already. The wreck I got into about 2-3 weeks ago, I wish i did die from me getting ejected from the truck but I didnt. it pissed me off so much. I go to bed saying I love you mom. because I want to die at night. I don't like waking up in the mornings. At school everyday, if someone messes with me, I hit them. they try fighting bacj but it dont work. I have so much angry to use on them but yet I don't I hold my ass back and let them hit a little bit because I can't feel shit. I hate my life so much. The girl I love wants my bestfriend that hurts her everytime the date. She pisses me off. My bestfriend is lucky I don't put him in the ground...

Have you ever felt this pain....

[BeastlyHobos]

So I have a questions, how old are you?

So I suggest you get off your ass and go out and enjoy your life, don't feel sorry for yourself. If no one talks to you talk to them. Make new friends. Talk to people about your issues, share your feelings it helps. When I was in highschool I hated my life because all my friends left and became these "cool kids" and I was left alone. I had a hard time making new friends and thought that just dying would be better than living. But my life got better I got involved in extra activities, sports and stuff. You just need to take the bull by the horns and go for it.

There really isn't anything else I can tell you.